"What do you want to be when u grow up?" "What do you want to be next time?" "What do you want to work as?" "What do you want to be in the future?" "What do you want to do?"
People keep asking. Or rather, i kept thinking. I don't know, really. Doctor? No. Lawyer? No. Accountant? No. Engineer? No. Hmm, i really don't know. But this line from some drama is imprinted in my mind, til now. "我不是没有用，我只是胸无大志。"
I guess i'm, too. Sadly? Nope. Though i don't have big dreams, i still want to live in the way i want to. In which way? 悠闲自在. (<- what's this in English? -.-) LEISURELY. Ya i think it's called leisurely. Maybe i will earn enough money to get a piano and enough money to pay for my piano lessons and then i will retire. :D Come to think of it, not having a dream made me quite vexed initially, cause i can't work towards something, a goal. So i don't know what i want don't know what to do and am afraid that i might choose the wrong things to do. But it's not up to me to choose to have a dream or not so.. Well wait til i have a dream. :D
HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE! :D
written at 6:03 PM.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
梦一场 - 萧敬腾
This is super nice!! :D
written at 10:02 PM.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sometimes, the regret just comes back. When i thought of it again. When you know you hadn't done your best, you know there will be regrets. The thing is, how long you get to overcome it.
I actually thought i had reflected thoroughly upon it and prepared to get on, but no, i am still persistent. Persistent. About how i wasted the opportunity, when i knew i could have done better. I guessed this is one moment i felt quite lousy, cause i know things might have been different. Much more different, maybe? (And upon finishing this two sentences i realized the 'could haves' and 'might haves' are the already no-longer-applicable/possible.) I really thought i did, you know?
Perhaps this gave me This definitely gave me a good lesson on how i should do things in future. I meant now. Either give your best shot, or be prepared to come out sulking and blaming. :)
written at 7:38 PM.
Friday, October 16, 2009
:D:D:D GREAT JOB EVERYONE!! Fought a tough battle for floorball today! But it's SUPER SUPER FUN, and somewhat strategic :D But drained all my energy, totally tired now. And very sorry to those i've hit with the floorball stick. Really sorry.
So many things to do these two months: I&R WR OP CO Camp Revision Lectures Tutorials KBox Iceskate CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!
Christmas come quickly! Love the Christmas season! :D
written at 9:10 PM.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I will take on whatever that comes! :D
JIAYOU EVERYONE!! It's only one more year to go!
written at 2:22 PM.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Easier said than done, really. Life's so tough i'd love to find things which could brighten up my day. Apparently, nothing will i guess. Fear is the thing i've got to overcome. I always tell people how optimistic one should learn to be. But it's always easy to say to others, to encourage others. But at times when you're down it really can't be helped.
Nobody said this route was going to be easy and direct. Indeed. I know this made me grew a lot. I could just learn many many things in one day of schooling. I really hate it, but i learn a lot, as much as i could see with my own eyes. Believe it or not, i discover things every second, i don't show it (obviously), but i know. And that's probably one thing that i'm proud of being in school, that is being able to observe. Perhaps i could only say that cause i can't drop out of it now. I chose this path. I always ask, how difficult could life get, how tough could life go? It is when emotions and thoughts grasp the whole of you you find it hard to get out of the pitfall. No matter how much you know that life can't get any tougher.
I'm so tired i just want to stop here but i know i couldn't. I really couldn't. Nobody could. But i'm just so tired i hope this will end now. Please. Just one more year. One more year to go. ARGH. But how, i feel the tension now.
Okay whatever after i get out of school i will really really tell you how happy i'm. Right now, i will put in all my effort into studying, cca-ing.. and whatever that deals with school.
