Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Too happy that i can't study for Physics now :|
``it's 6:34 PM now.``
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Okay :D
Goal of the year: (A^5)(B)
``it's 6:36 PM now.``
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
BABIES ARE INNOCENT.
SOMETIMES, I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE DUMP THEIR BABIES.
I KNOW, I KNOW THEY DO THE WRONG STUFF, SO THEY GET PREGNANT.
SO, TADA! LIKE HOW THEY DUMP RUBBISH, THERE GOES THEIR FLESH.
OWN FLESH AND BLOOD, FOR GOODNESS' SAKE.
It's a life, guys.
You don't just throw away a life like that.
I know financial status is one main reason people dump babies away.
Pride is another, dumb reason.
Okay, let's say for pride first.
How much does pride worth? $10? $100000? $100000000000?
No matter what, pride can't earn you food house future.
Let's say you're pregnant at like, 16-year-old.
You know you have to attend school, so throw away lor.
HELLO.
If you've thought of the consequences earlier, this won't have happened.
Anyway, you already know something might go wrong at the start.
Since you've already done something wrong, why make another mistake, which is 1000...000 times more severe than the previous one?
Master Sheng Yan once said, "If given 2 more minutes, he needs not commit suicide."
If given more time, i hope i could convince people not to abort or dump their babies. :X
Imagine yourself getting crushed and squashed in this big machine.
Imagine you're let alone to die off like that, HELPLESS.
Don't say abortion is for the baby's good cause you fear for his future.
Don't try to be innocent can.
The baby is the one who's really innocent.
Now that you abort, you rob away his future.
No more leh. Gone, you know?
Since you created his future, let it go one.
There will be a way for your own survival, and for his survival.
Trust me, please.
Please.
Okay, now for financial status.
No money to bring up the baby?
What is money?
A few wads of notes, of papers, which can be reprinted and earned and spent and then it's gone.
What's love?
The love for your baby can't be copied and earned and spent. And not gone for sure.
Since you can always earn money, though not a lot, you can borrow. (I'm not encouraging people to borrow la but in this case it's urgent; you can borrow from close family members or friends)
Love leh?
if you just let go of your baby, the love will be replaced by shame, guilt, regret and trauma.
Why let your heart be replaced by some trash?
Duh, this is real trash.
So you see, if you have no money, and you give up your love.
You lose all.
Retain your love, and you will earn money for both your child's and your survival. :)
So, think twice!
Think thrice!
.
.
.
And think through til you understand the right choice.
Trust me :)
``it's 8:56 PM now.``
Saturday, June 06, 2009
又在想了。
上学真令人厌烦，厌倦，却不能不去。
这条路是自己选的就不能后悔。
学校还真奇怪，
不知怎么
就这样，
无能融入他们。
常常尝试着参与一份，
但我真的不是他们。
勉强只会让自己更难过，
想要适应却也不易。
怎么办呢？
在这找不到梁柱
因为无法像他们一样。
没办法啊。
不容混性就只能一步一步走过去。
慢慢走过去。
没有依靠。
因为他们说要学会独立。
可是，
想不通。
依赖有错吗？
人与人之间
不就应互相依赖吗？
独立思想我赞同。
但独立这字眼我不喜欢。
因为它让人抱着虚伪走过人世间。
多多少少总会吧。
在哪里都有虚假。
需要防备，
结果自己跟他们都没两样了。
大家都蒙着面纱，面具。
撤下它又让人不安宁。
用微笑掩饰自己的心情，
是最好的面具吧。
在这里没有真表情，
我只能戴着它，
看穿各别真实的他们。
我开心
因为我有识别力。
我开心
因为在这里看到不同的世界。
以前从不曾目睹过的另一端。
我开心
因为在这领悟了许多事情。
我开心
因为结交了各种相识。
我开心
因为认识了不同的个性。
也好。
``it's 6:42 PM now.``
Friday, June 05, 2009
Heeyi is making confessions!
Cause i kept traveling long distances in trains these days and i didn't just sleep/stone during the trips. I thought a lot, about anything.
*It's 9.57pm now and i'm missing 双子星 to blog!*
If you're feeling random, read on, if not, go off :P
I don't believe in competition. Competition only pressurises me and i won't be motivated to work harder in competitive places. I said before, competition sucks. Perhaps it's cause i'm not as simple-minded. I think a lot, maybe too much, but i still insist on my point that competition is not real motivation. Think about it, you compete with people, you get good grades good jobs good money good life. So what? So you get happiness? Stop being so naive la. The purpose of someone being competitive is to get happpiness in the future. But the more you chase happiness, the more it eludes from you. It's like a dog chasing its own tail. Or worse than that, i could say. But when you enjoy the process through life, as in not competing with others but learning real stuff with your own capability, happiness will come enveloping you. Trust me :)
I want to try everything! Like, why not? :D A rockstar, sportswomen, casual, vintage, party, retro, whatever i can put myself in! And yesterday, i was said to be slutty~ -_-' I didn't meant to la sorry. But i hoped i have my dress sense. :D Anyway, i don't have a fixed style. I'm not a stylo milo person. I'm casual on normal days, unless i'm attending some concerts/night's out/other special events. Cause i feel restricted being only able to wear one type of stuff. :X Though it may be in vogue to have one's own style, but it do get boring sometimes.
When i look like i'm daydreaming, most probably i'm not. I'm thinking. Just ask me what i'm thinking about and i'will share with you. But don't complain that i'm like an auntie. T.T' I'm really thinking :D
I want to be a performer! :D I feel accomplished after every performance cause i always reflect on the process undergone and the feelings i brought to the audience. Guys if you haven't been on to stage, just go! In your whole lifetime, get up there at least one if you could. :) But do it for the right reason, nto for fame or wealth or anything else!
I'm most hypocritical in school. Don't ask me why :X It's just like that. Perhaps cause schooling itself is hypocritical? Hmm. Though i don't like schooling, but didn't regret entering acjc. Cause i experience new culture, new people, new environment. Though not quite adaptable, but i see another part of the world. :)
Confessions shall stop here for now, going to watch Juraissic(how do you spell it? o.O') park!
ENJOY JUNE HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! :D
``it's 9:55 PM now.``
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Totally screwed myself up in term 2.
T.T'
But no more!
A fresh new term!
A fresh new beginning :)
Thank you friends :D
``it's 7:01 PM now.``
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Almost got banged down by a car. :/
Today wasn't a good day.
Yesterday wasn't a good day.
The day before wasn't a good day either.
:(
Life is so tough can i reverse it?
I'm not burned out, yet.
But soon i will be.
No more jc no more 4h2 no more examination no more competition no more whatsoever.
Please.
I just want to walk through my life.
I just want to do the things i want to.
They say i mug.
You think i like it?
*rhetorical*
Trying to squeeze 5years of stuff into your brain within 2 years is.. i don't know what to say.
Would you even remember what you've learnt after that?
Still say what, education.
Schooling and education in Singapore can never be the same.
I'm sorry to say that but, its a fact, well.
No matter how holistic it tries to be, it's still schooling.
You memorize, and you forget. You memorize, and you forget.
I don't know, maybe it's just for me.
But i remember what Mr Lim said, "Press on."
I find his story hard to believe, not quite convincing, but i remember his words.
I don't understand tutorials, lectures, and what is going on.
This feeling sucks.
Cause i don't like to be competitive.
When a person starts to be competitive, he isn't happy anymore.
Trust me.
And that's how i scored a grand 22 points before Os, and despite being rambled and scolded and scorned at, i didn't really bother about it.
I wasn't pushed on by the high grades of my classmates.
What's the big deal, i mean, i can't do means i can't do, why make me understand and say that i actually can do it?
Meaningless.
What's worse still, is that you tell me my concept is wrong when i reach a higher level.
Wouldn't it be better to teach the right stuff form the start, even if it goes slowly?
Just let these two years end quickly.
:X
(which means 2012 would be reaching too)
``it's 6:14 PM now.``
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
觉得自己不属于这样的世界，
虚假不诚恳敷衍伪装，
同样的意思，
各样的例子。
同样的环境不同的人，
感觉就像。。
在一条人来人往的街道上迷惘的走过。
路过。
有些难受却不能说。
但走过的路不能转弯，
只能回头望，
望那错误的选择，
反省。
之后，又得向前步行。
常常试着融入，
好像不行。
算了吧。
至少，
在那里我很开心。
真情流露，没有半点虚假。
或许有吧，
只是藏在心里看不太清楚。
``it's 8:16 PM now.``
Saturday, April 04, 2009
People learn from their mistakes.
And i just did :)
That is to put responsibility before personal interest.
Cause the world is so realistic, what i love don't matter the most, but instead, what i should do is to be set priority.
It's absolutely fine to me right now, since we don't live individually in this world.
Thus, we bear responsibility for what we say, think and do.
So, this shall be it for now :D
Responsibility shall go first :)
``it's 9:03 PM now.``
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Does anybody want to buy a Physics Textbook/ Guidebook/ Reference book? :D
I'm selling off this recommended guide - University Physics(12th edition) by Young and Freedman at only $50!
It's brand-new and includes Modern Physics :)
Please feel free to tag at the board if you wish to purchase it.
Thank you!
``it's 12:53 AM now.``
